5 different things I want to, but would most probably never, say to 5 different people:
1. I live two lives. Mine, and the one with you. Those two will never be the same, and my life with you will never be, because long ago the script was written and you were only scribblings in the margins that was not meant to be part of the real thing. But sometimes I wish I lived the margins.
2. I am terrified of losing you again. Talk to me.
3. I hate you, because you remind me of everything that I don't have, and will never have. But more than that, I hate you because you're a reminder of what I will not allow myself to have, and in turn why I hate myself more.
4. I owe you my life. And I wish that you knew that I'd do anything for you, if you'd only ask. But I know you don't need me, and in some ways I envy you for that. I miss you.
5. I love you. So much that it hurts. But I think it would hurt more if I told you the truth.