I'm sorry if I'm not into gender fucking
and if I can't master all the jargons involved
in the politics of gender bending, sexuality, sexual identity
and whatever else
I'm sorry if I don't see the point in arguing over what words mean
talking over what can be said
and what cannot be
what's politically incorrect
and what's politically hotter to say
because there's already too much of that going on, talking
and not enough people doing anything
And people die, while we argue over the technicality
of what "genocide" means
I'm more interested in action
than just talking
and if that's no good to you
then I'm sorry
but I think that talking, in a way, is a luxury
and sometimes there's only so much I can take
when we get caught up in definitions, and deconstruction
before all the noise in my head
pushes me over the edge
If it seems self contradictory
that I show less interest in fighting for gay rights
than I really should
given that I will be fighting for what I am
then I'm sorry
Because I believe in something else
which I think is closer to what's fundamentally us, all of us
which I think is more worthy of my time and energy
Don't ask me about the history of homosexuality
or what LGBTTQQI* stands for
or why I have to look it up everytime I try to use it
as if I'm supposed to know it off the top of my head
I'm sorry if I don't
but I need my headspace for something else
Because the truth is
if we only have the means to achieve one but not the other
I'd rather see that poverty be eradicated
and children not having to fight for their lives with guns
than to see the legalization of gay marriage
or the use of neutral pronouns in legal documents
And I'd say that I'm sorry if I seem indifferent
towards issues that should be more personal
or if I seem stupid for not knowing the language
that I'm supposed to know for being part of "the community"
(not so much by choice, but by default)
but really, I'm not
If that is the reason why I'm not hot enough
or cool enough
or smart and sophisticated enough
and if is going to be a reason I become an outcast
then so be it