it's a time-cap I put on myself
a limit, a bottom line
a test of patience.
and you, you stand there
beautiful
absorbing the glances
the smiles
the fear
between wanting and losing and needing
of which you are not and may never want to be
a freedom of isolation
and others orbiting
waiting
patiently.
the world spins
in frenzy
and in the still calmness in the eye of the storm
you stand distant,
alone, choosing to be.
I want nothing more
than to be there for you
and for you to let me
but now standing on the other side of the wall
I am here.